Death broke us today

I’m sorry that you are having difficulty breathing.I see how hard you have been trying and inspite of all the medical intervention it remains the same and can see the fear in your eyes as you get worst.


I’m sorry you are so restless thinking that if you close your eyes now then you will never get to open them again.

I’m sorry that you have to be locked away on an unit isolation and because of that you cannot see your family and cannot see ypi either. I’m sorry they cannot hold your hands and lay on your chest and reassure that you are loved. I become your medium of communication for now. I’m sorry that you are struggling to complete your sentences to convey your messages, but I’m patient so I stay and listen awhile as you gradually compose it.

I’m sorry that you have reverted to a baby stage of using a diaper again and even though I’ve reassured you a thousand times that its fine and I will change you when needs be and you’ve done nothing wrong I watch you cry.


I’m sorry that your strength is fading and i can see it in your eyes how weak and worn you are but you still fight.


I’m sorry that you took your very last breath today I was waiting on you to start breathing on your owe again, i was waiting for your family to hear you are making improvements, i was waiting on you to say to me you were feeling better, I was waiting on you to laugh like you use to and I was waiting to see that radiate smile I had been accustomed to, shine again.


I’m sorry you couldn’t hold on a bit longer to see your sons and daughters give your grandchildren. They’ll never know to joy of laying on your bosom that some how seems to have magical power making them find rest in your owe unique way.


Im sorry that death is a part of us and that you had to trod that road so fast.
Death broke us today we mourn you sweet lady.

Give yourself time

Time…

Give yourself time to heal. The hurt doesn’t go away all together in a blink of an eye but with time it gets better. Give yourself time to be happy. Enjoy every moment life has to offer sometimes we get too distracted by the woes that we fail to appreciate the beautiful moment life has to offer. Give yourself time to understand. Sometimes we want to have everything figured out all at once when in fact we just need to understand what is going on now.

Give yourself time to entertain peace. Arguments will arise but learn how to walk away or not react to everything. Give yourself time to grow. Seek to improve yourself try always to be better than you were yesterday, or a year a go. Water yourself with knowledge, experience (as the present themselves) and with new and innovative things.

Give yourself time to sip a good cup of tea. It can help you to relax and as you relax enjoy a good book or good company.

Give yourself time… Because waiting is always better than being wrecked.

Process

The process of growth

Growth is never easy, but I wouldn’t want it any other way. Its in the growing process you recognize who you are, and what you are really made of. The process towards your growth can be rough, but the harshness of it helps to refine you.

Do not be weary….

Don’t be discouraged when the pressure of the process starts piling on, its teaching you resilience. When you are knocked off your feet and to your knees, that’s how you know your knees know how to keep your head above the waters (pray). When failure waltz itself into your direction, be the better dancer. Never crumble, Never fold! Be so aggressive in your move that failure cannot keep up with your pace.

Watch yourself grow, overcoming hurdles after hurdles, victories after victories. Now watch as you make other aspire to be the best version of themselves.

Growth is never easy…. But the results are worth it.

Knowledge

Empower with Knowledge

It was Sir Francis Bacon who stated, knowledge is power and with all my heart I believe this phrase. The more knowledgeable someone is the more equip they are to make a decision. I must admit though that even though persons may get this knowledge they may not choose the direction or option you had intended. However, its a decision they have made base on the knowledge or information given.

Now more than ever people are using the voices they have been given and often they lean on facts to support their claims. So gone are the days when they think they are entrapped thus skewing them to one direction, as information is now available at their finger tips.

This era is different and this generation view things differently… Empower us with knowledge. We are reading and applying that which we have read. We are also committing things to memory for later. Feed us with the right things… Empower us with knowledge

They are Looking

Health careworkers

A few months ago I had to privilege of helping with the take care of a critically ill person. I poured my heart into it, as I always do because I believe in giving the best care possible. As the days progressed I continued to do by very best. I was reassigned to another area in middle care as such, I was not able to be there for the duration of the person’s stay. I was elate though when I heard of the recovery they had made.

Today while I was at my local supermarket walking along side my mother she began to tell me how a lady came to her today to express how grateful she was about the care I had given to her relative. The person voiced to my mother, that I was an angel sent by God. This lady was looking at me while I was rendering care and I had no idea, how much she was recording in her mind my actions. She even knew my mother (which i didn’t know) so much so, she found her in person so she could relay a message of gratitude. I was so happy and my heart as been so merry after hearing

Some days your jobs get so hard, stressful and very demanding, but do not forget why you choose to do what you are doing. Give of your best service in what ever you are doing amidst those days. They may not say it immediately, but they are taking notes. Someone has been praying for a smooth day and you could be the very answer to their prayer.

PS: PCR is Negative

Second Impression

In my heart of hearts, I believe that God lines up destiny and he align moments perfectly. A while back I met a doctor and my first impression was not good, it pretty much left a bitter taste in my mouth. While everyone would voice how much of a good person this doctor was, I remain too hooked on the past to even give the doctor the time of day to redeem himself. For a short time I was very petty.

Recently, I had another impression of this doctor, after I decided to move pass the incident and try to see the “good” in him. I can firmly say I am happy I did. He is a doctor who actually listens, take advise and is extremely thorough in is job, and as a health care worker this is well appreciated.

They say first impression last and I do believe this but I also believe that second impressions are important too and can be just as lasting.

Take a second look. Second impressions are just as good.

The wait

Just like that an ordinary Monday morning becomes one of the worst day of your life! I have always been anxious when someone says “we need to talk” or “I have something to tell you”. Then you have to wait a very long time to actually hear what they have to say. That was exactly what happened to me on Sunday night into Monday. Being told someone needed to speak with me “urgently” and I had to wait eight (8) long hours before hearing. So I had to sit, and constantly go through the archive of my mind, retracing my steps to see where I went wrong or messed up

The Nightmare Begins

It was about 7:35am Monday morning when I got the awful news. As the ICN revealed the “urgent” news I stared at her in awe. Too shocked to move and no words to speak. The very thing I dreaded was now in my very lap. The apologies came,but for me it was utterly meaningless brcause apologies cannot erase or undo what had been done. The game plan I had for this situation had not yet been fully completely and as such i had to reorganize my plans to facilitate this misfortune.

The Waiting Game

The wait begins now, as I make my daily dairy log. Checking my temperature and for any symptoms that may develop. Anxiously awaiting my swab date, to undergo a procedure I have always dreaded. But I trust God who is the author and finisher of my faith.

As I wait I’ll pray…

Just do it!

Take a leap of faith. Stop putting things off. It is your time! Sign up for that school! Send out those job application! Try something new! Make that move. I know its easier to say later than tackling right away but procrastinating will get you no where. Your voice needs to be heard, you have a story to tell you audience is waiting. So get up and just do it!!

Live a little

Rainy days

Recently my country was subjected to several consective days of intense rain fall. As cliche as this may sound, I must say, for a while many of us did not think it would stop. In the space of mere weeks two hurricanes passed by my little island and although we were spared from the full effect of the hurricane, the trial it left behind was brutal. Things once taken for “granted” had now found its owe signiciant space in our hearts.

Known for its beautiful, lush vegetation and emaculate scenery, my fellow citizen and I were forced to watch as the rains pelted crops and destroyed roads as well as caused mayhem in the lives of its victims. Many news of severe flooding, lost of lives, completely destruction of roads and landslides filled the press. This was a very hard period but gradually the rain slowly stopped.

What the rain taught us

The rain opened our eyes as to how tunneled our vision had become since the start of this Covid pandemic. It had created somewhat a veil over our memory that we are in what is dubbed the hurricane season. Much like life, we sometimes allow our vision to be so narrowed by certain circumstances that may arise with the sole intention of crippling us or leaving other critical areas of our life unattented to. Which inturn does more harm than we had anticipated. So what has the rain taught us! It taught us to find balance and not to allow any one thing to hold us or our focus hostage. How to find new ways and means of coping with sudden misfortune and how to adapt our previous plans to accommodate this misfortune as well as how to be grateful for the little things life has to offer.

I do sympathize with the countries that we dealt a heavy blow and hope that there ecomony will gradually find it footing amidst hurricanes and the global pandemic.