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Self Motivation

A little motivation to get you through your day

This morning when I got up I was not in the mood to do anything, infact I lazely got out of bed. I had so much that I wanted to do. Today was the day I wanted to finally make my first video for my YouTube channel and upload some Tiktok video. I sat around the table staring at my phone. Running the simulation in my head as to how I wanted the videos to unfold, but I didn’t feel motivated.

Then I decided that I was going to get them done despite how I was feeling. So I got up did my hair in a lively up do, put on my favorite shade of red lipstick, sat infront of my phone and started to record. Almost immediately I came alive. I was fun of so much enjoy and vibes I kept spontaneously erupting in laughter as I made errors.

There are going to be days when you feel so dejected or so demotivated, but if you fight those ill feeling I believe you can cease the day. Sometimes you have to encourage and motivate yourself. You have to be your biggest cheerleader. Friends or family may not always be around to give you that pep talk, but imagine having something so deeply embeded within you, that force itself to the surface on those days when you need the most. Being intrinsically motivated is one of the best arrow in your quiver.

In this very moment I so happy for everything that life has to offer. I am also very happy for the various platform I have to express myself. I am happy for 4 followers on blog, 8 followers on my channel and 1 follower on my tiktok.

PS: It is a huge deal

Forgiveness

Food from the table of her mind

It was Lewis B. Smedes who said “To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you”. In this world it is so easy to hold onto the hurt, the betrayal and the anger instead of letting go. As I put pen to paper to make my jottings, I recognize how easy it is to actually write or even say these words as opposed to doing it. But considering the benefits and freedom that comes with forgiving its worth taking the risk to try it.

Unforgiveness

While it may seem as though you have won by haboring unforgiveness, but you are actually loosing. You are involuntarily giving you heart more room to entertain hatred. You are also giving the person or persons who hurt you the permission to live in your heart. Carolyn Miller stated “Unforgiveness is a poison that shrivels the heart. It means a person cannot truly live in the present as they’re always thinking about the past”. The past is very important, but to constantly live in it and having it dictate your life is not acceptable.

When you forgive a person its not about them, it’s about you and your hearts. Its for you to be free, heal and grow. Conquer hate, never let hate conquer you.

Second Impression

Words that matter

In my heart of hearts, I believe that God lines up destiny and he align moments perfectly. A while back I met a doctor and my first impression was not good, it pretty much left a bitter taste in my mouth. While everyone would voice how much of a good person this doctor was, I remain too hooked on the past to even give the doctor the time of day to redeem himself. For a short time I was very petty.

Recently, I had another impression of this doctor, after I decided to move pass the incident and try to see the “good” in him. I can firmly say I am happy I did. He is a doctor who actually listens, take advise and is extremely thorough in is job, and as a health care worker this is well appreciated.

They say first impression last and I do believe this but I also believe that second impressions are important too and can be just as lasting.

Take a second look. Second impressions are just as good.

The wait

Words that matter

Just like that an ordinary Monday morning becomes one of the worst day of your life! I have always been anxious when someone says “we need to talk” or “I have something to tell you”. Then you have to wait a very long time to actually hear what they have to say. That was exactly what happened to me on Sunday night into Monday. Being told someone needed to speak with me “urgently” and I had to wait eight (8) long hours before hearing. So I had to sit, and constantly go through the archive of my mind, retracing my steps to see where I went wrong or messed up

The Nightmare Begins

It was about 7:35am Monday morning when I got the awful news. As the ICN revealed the “urgent” news I stared at her in awe. Too shocked to move and no words to speak. The very thing I dreaded was now in my very lap. The apologies came,but for me it was utterly meaningless brcause apologies cannot erase or undo what had been done. The game plan I had for this situation had not yet been fully completely and as such i had to reorganize my plans to facilitate this misfortune.

The Waiting Game

The wait begins now, as I make my daily dairy log. Checking my temperature and for any symptoms that may develop. Anxiously awaiting my swab date, to undergo a procedure I have always dreaded. But I trust God who is the author and finisher of my faith.

Just do it!

Words that matter

Take a leap of faith. Stop putting things off. It is your time! Sign up for that school! Send out those job application! Try something new! Make that move. I know its easier to say later than tackling right away but procrastinating will get you no where. Your voice needs to be heard, you have a story to tell you audience is waiting. So get up and just do it!!

Friendship

Food from the table of her mind

For me, friendships are extremely important and I hold them very dear to my heart. So rest assured if I tell you that you are my friend, I mean it in every sense of the word and you are held in high regards in my heart. So you will understand when I say my circle of friends is small and my inner circle of friends is even smaller.

Your friends should want to see you win and level up, being the best version of yourself as much as possible. You need people in your circle who can motivate you on those days when you need some extra encouragement. They should cheer loudly for you especially on those days when you just want to throw in the towel.

Recently I express to one of my inner circle friends that I wanted to do something new. When she heard my idea she instantly became one of my biggest supporter. She said “I will promote you, I even have some (referring to the concept I had just shared) that I want you to try” . When I express one fear that I had she instantly destroyed that fear and said what you are bringing to the table is different. In your life you will need friends like this who will cheer so loudly for you that the very doubts or fears you had seem so obsolete.

Your Inner Circle Friends

The word inner already suggest the position of those friends hold. It speaks to a different level of closeness that they hold in your life. These are the persons that know you on a personal level that knows detailed information about you and in essences knows you extremely well. The reality is not everyone you call friend is at this level. Some are mere acquaintance, so stop giving unnecessary information to them and expecting certain behavior from these acquaintance. Know your circle and the people in it.

Know when to walk away

Some friendships can be toxic and you just need to leave. You don’t have to argue you can peaceful back away. Sweetie you cannot continue pouring into something that is not going anywhere. A friendship should not be one sided, it has to be two sided. When a friendship or relationship becomes a one sided thing then my dear just walk away. Always remember Choose people who choose you.