#2021 – inside her broken mind

Inside her mind

The week that just went by made me want to throw in the towel. I’ve gone through a whole roller coaster of emotions. I was angry to the point where I became silent. Then I was crying for two consecutive days cause I had lost a colleague, and then I smiled and celebrated with my friend. I real roller coaster.

I never imagined that when I graduated university I would face a pandemic and one of this nature. I use to read books about outbreaks of diseases and how those persons had to fight. I never imagine this would be my reality too.

I didn’t know that in this 21 century where deem ourselves well advanced in technology and knowledge a virus would send to our knees.

I cry because I am human, I have emotions and I am hurting. I live for the day I can step outside smell they fresh air and feel the cool breeze on my face, but as I look at I see that reality escaping us.

My heart aches but I remember God’s words. If it were in this life we had hope we would be men most miserable. I take comfort in God and his word.

Inside the broken mind of a Nurse.

A little broken

Inside her Mind

I have been a little sad recently to the point where I have basically stopped talking a lot. I know what the power of a good talk can do, but sometimes its hard to put your emotions and thoughts into words that will be effectively conveyed what I’m feeling.

In the last two to three weeks I have cried a lot for no apparent reason. I have laid in bed crippled by many thoughts which cause me to delaying many things because I was not in a good place.

If you feel like im a little distant I may be. But just give me some time, be patient with me a little while longer. I’m just a little broken.

But I See

Inside her Mind

I see the look that you carry in your eyes, how it lights up during my absence and how it dwindles with my presence.

I know that you are whispering behind my back. I see the smirk on your faces as you slander my name with false accusations and assumptions.

I see the pressure you pile on me hoping that I will break. Hoping that you will get to laugh at my defeat.

I pretend to be oblivious of the plot you are forming. The tricks that you are pulling. I am sweet by nature its not in my blood to be rude. I’m humble, I’m considerate, I’m loyal and I’m friendly. Sometimes people use these quality to hurt me or mistreat me.

Don’t exploit the good quality people have for your own gain.

This world can be so unfriendly and so unkind. Why not be the changes instead of adding to the problem.

Process

Words that matter

Growth is never easy, but I wouldn’t want it any other way. Its in the growing process you recognize who you are, and what you are really made of. The process towards your growth can be rough, but the harshness of it helps to refine you.

Do not be weary….

Don’t be discouraged when the pressure of the process starts piling on, its teaching you resilience. When you are knocked off your feet and to your knees, that’s how you know your knees know how to keep your head above the waters (pray). When failure waltz itself into your direction, be the better dancer. Never crumble, Never fold! Be so aggressive in your move that failure cannot keep up with your pace.

Watch yourself grow, overcoming hurdles after hurdles, victories after victories. Now watch as you make other aspire to be the best version of themselves.

Growth is never easy…. But the results are worth it.

Sometimes you’ll get frustrated…

Food from the table of her mind

Sometimes the things that you normally do doesn’t exactly float your boat… It doesn’t mean you are depressed. Maybe you need a break.

Sometimes what use to be your motivation no longer holds the same value… It doesn’t mean that you are not motivated…

Sometimes you get frustrated… And its ok. Maybe you need a break… We all need that every now and then especially during these times. Just ensure frustration does not cripple you.

Happy new year

#2021

Happy new year

The year 2020

Food from the table of her mind

I am almost certain that we did not plan for the woes that came with 2020. The happenings of the year broke most of us, it took so many things and love ones from us. For me it will forever be lodge in history.

So with bated breath, we look towards 2021, careful not to place too much hope in it, out of fear. Which is understandable. But as humans we hope. We hope for things to change, we hope that when the sun rises in the ski revealing the first morning of the new year something pure will happen. That the dust of 2020 will just stay only in 2020.

The reality is the woes that were prevalent in 2020 will come with us for a time in the coming year. But we hope… That as the days pass normalcy we returned.

Although 2020 was a turbulent year I’m sure most of us can honestly say we learnt something new about ourselves, we discovered some hidden talent and we have all engaged in something we longed to do but time was lacking…

As We hope for a better year never for get what 2020 has thought us… How to survive inspire of the odds… The year 2020